Promise

In a world that's full of hope, why am I alone? Had this feeling so long, my serotonin's gone Even when I get high, why do I feel so low? Never good at goodbyes, I hold on I hate the man I see when I see myself A reflection of hell, yeah I told myself it's different, it's so hard to believe I know that I won't change, so I sold another dream All the lives I told are burning holes inside And I don't, I don't know why I broke a promise to myself As I stand here again all covered in mud And I'm drenched in my sins What have I become? I said the last time, that would be my last time Not good at goodbyes, I hold on If I jumped off this ledge, would you catch my fall? Would you care at all? I told myself it's different, it's so hard to believe I know that I won't change, so I sold another dream All the lives I've told are burning holes inside And I don't, I don't know why I broke a promise to myself All the stages of shaken All the roads that I've taken Wondering if I can really make it Feeling so depressed, I've been humbled and humiliated All the truth I've mistaken for the things I thought saved me It's like nobody knows At any given second, I feel like I might explode I told myself it's different, it's so hard to believe I know I'll never change, I sold another dream All the lives I've told are burning holes inside And I don't, I don't know why And I don't, I don't know why I broke a promise to myself