Quicksand Minutes

Of all the blurry late night sprees

The browned out streaks of wild

I feel one gap of memory so loud

The piece I'll never capture

Amnesia by the night

After all my racing thoughts have circled round

And I wonder who I am in those very last few moments

The last few minutes 'fore I fall asleep

On ordinary nights between shut and open eyes

Never know the thought that sunk me in the deep

Did I think of you

I dreamed I finally said it

Though not with all three words

Even then your answer choked me to the core

Daydreamed that I could bring you

To my hometown, walk you through

Then remember that it's simply far too far

Almost let it slip like butter

As you stepped off the train

Bit it back in time and swallowed it once more

But I wonder who I am in those very last few moments

The last few minutes 'fore I fall asleep

On ordinary nights between shut and open eyes

Never know the thought that sunk me in the deep

Did I think of you

Did I think of you?

Feels like all I ever do

Now I only wish I knew

When to let the words free

In those quicksand minutes off to sleep

Would I admit

That I love you?