Never Sure

To be alone together just once again Is something that is sure to happen sometime If my hands can't stay on the table And if I find myself unable To look away from staring in your eyes And the color of the sunrise inside I promise that I'll hold myself together And act like this isn't killing me I saw you once today I painfully watched as you looked the other way Afraid just to notice me standing there You would make it obvious, you don't care I won't lie, I only love you for the heartbreak I only love you for the give and the take No, you know I want it I'm in love with the thought of everything I am lifted to a holy ground And from up here can see a little of everything And I can see you don't want me around And I know how much that it makes you cringe To think about you and I as friends Together, forever, until the end After that, you won't have to see me again I won't lie, I only love you for the heartbreak I only love you for the give and the take No, you know I want it And when I die, just rip my heart out from my chest And put it in a mason jar left to rest on your bedside table And if there's any hope alive after all I would hold it like a newborn baby And care for it like it was my own Hey, you know, it looks kinda like me And we'd still get chills every time we kiss And I will always promise this, that to you I will never tell a lie No, not to you No, not to you I won't lie, I only love you for the heartbreak I only love you for the give and the take No, you know I want it And when I die, just rip my heart out from my chest And put it in a mason jar left to rest on your bedside table And put it in a mason jar left to rest on your bedside table