Scared to Death

I stepped up to the plane

Bound for LA

I feel my mind nosedive

Into old ways

I'm not sure how I feel

About panels, bolts and steel

A modern marvel featurin'

Everything that can go wrong

Last time I did this

I damn near died

I hid in an airport stall

Unable to cry

I downed a couple Rx pills

To get a little bit sedated

Drugs as a fix are

Something I've always hated

But hey, what's this now?

I feel quite a bit different

Catastrophe isn't on repeat

I'm grounded at 40,000 feet

It seems the feedback loop has finally shorted out

Am I safe? Am I calm? Have I outlived my doubt?

It seems the feedback loop has finally shorted out

Am I safe? Am I calm?

So when I land

I'm gonna hug my friend

I'm gonna squeeze her hand

And then I'll smile

And shout I made it

And I didn't freak out

When I land

It turns out my fears

Have quite the elderly history

They date back to my innocent youth

Harmless newborn killers

Father always put

Faith in our father

Peacefully kneeling in oaken aisles

I never took the place at his side

Admirable mother, what was she?

A teacher, worn down, but bright-eyed, stubbornly

I don't think she intended to

Teach me so damn well to be scared

The circuit board has fed a loop that goes nowhere

It starts with me, it ends with me, my script in between

The circuit board has fed a loop that goes nowhere

It starts with me, it ends with me

So when I land

I'm gonna see my friend

I'm gonna rest my hands

Upon her shoulders

I'm gonna be who she knows

And not who I've been

When I land

We might crash

Re-enact

Some horrific movie scene

Live every cut piece we didn't see

Meet the

Concrete ocean

Or fall into the iron land

But fuck if I'm gonna live scared to death

Before I die

And when I land

I'm gonna hug my friend

I'm gonna squeeze her hand

And then I'll smile

And shout I made it

And I didn't freak out

And when I land

I'm gonna see my friend

I'm gonna rest my hands

Upon her shoulders

I'm gonna be who she knows

And not who I've been

When I land