Rather Be Sick

I'm killing the messenger, I've got a lead, there is a system

Who's pulling the strings? Who's cutting my wings?

As time reveals a sky above the clouds are fading, fading, fading

I cannot die, I will not go

So many sleepless nights

This flame has withered more than you'll ever know

So many sudden awakenings

Up in a high and down in a low

So many sleepless nights, so many sudden awakenings

This disease eats me up from within

The sickness locks me in, there's no escape for me

This is it, I will not be afraid

I'm not giving in, no, I'm not giving in

Oh, I know now that it is done for me

Escape the void, be free

I need to know which way it could go

Where is that solid ground? Where I can hold my crown?

I'm sick of living in a fucking nightmare, I will never go

So many sleepless nights

This flame has withered more than you ever know

So many sudden awakenings

Up in a high and down in a low

This disease eats me up from within

The sickness locks me in, there's no escape for me

This is it, I will not be afraid

I'm not giving in, I said I'm not fucking giving in

The hell I sing keeps reminding me, there's no escape for me

Won't lie, I'd rather be sick

Yes, I'd rather be sick than follow your lead

Yes, I'd rather be sick than follow your lead, yeah

Yes, I'd rather be sick than follow your lead

Yes, I'd rather be sick than follow your lead

Yes, I'd rather be sick than follow your lead

Yes, I'd rather be sick than follow your lead

This disease eats me up from within

The sickness locks me in, there's no escape for me

This is it, I will not be afraid

I'm not giving in, I said I'm not fucking giving in

I'm not looking for a remedy

The sickness locks me in, there's no escape for me

I feel it buried underneath my skin

I'd rather be sick than follow your lead

I'd rather be sick than follow your lead