Give Me a Reason

Too many of my peers been killed how I wish they'd reappear Was just wit'em now I miss'em still I feel they spirits near Reminiscing of the years we would post and just chill Smoke and drink beers now relinquish all my fears Is what ima need to do in order to carry on I be afraid thats the truth but that don't mean I'm scary nah I got plenty heart and ain't tryna make excuses For my self cuz the truth is that would just be useless I ain't chose this chemical imbalance that I suffer with and have been ever since I was a toddler We all got problems it just helps me to write mine Down in the form of rhymes and share'em on the mic Might seem a bit strange but it helps you should try it If it wasn't for a pen & page I probably woulda died When ever I felt pain that I felt I couldn't grasp a hole of Now my pain translates into me asking you to Give me a reason why I shouldn't just say fuck it Give me a reason why I shouldn't just start claiming something Give me a reason why I shouldn't go sprayin' dumpin' Give me a reason please give me a reason Give me a reason why I shouldn't just say fuck it Give me a reason why I shouldn't just start claiming something Give me a reason why I shouldn't go sprayin' dumpin' Give me a reason I'm asking for a reason Cuz I can't think of one while I'm sitting here contemplating Hate this predicament I'm in and plus I'm tired of waiting For this income to come I'm broke and growing frustrated Must I commence to slangin' dope if I plan to make it Bust home invasions and get into hittin' licks again Resort to drastic measures more hyped than I've ever been Swear I don't love this paper just what I can do with it Its all about me making sure I provide for my kids And that's it I don't give a fuck 'bout nothing else In this world but my girl our babies and our health But sometimes I feel like whoa! I'm losing control Be sick & tired of being sick & tired of being broke Living poor ain't no joke I did it since a seed But I don't want my boys to grow and not see me succeed Set an example for'em and lay the foundation I gotta make it all this bullshit be testing my patience Be having me aggravated ready to risk it all Me getting cremated or life behind the walls It be an easy call when I get into my funks Depression plus anxiety minus the drink and blunts Equals me sick & nuts and not giving a fuck Being stuck between a rock and hard place like fuck! What the fuck!? I'm lost and don't know what to do Feel schizophrenic this me beggin' when I ask you to Give me a reason why I shouldn't just say fuck it Give me a reason why I shouldn't just start claiming something Give me a reason why I shouldn't go sprayin' dumpin' Give me a reason please give me a reason Give me a reason why I shouldn't just say fuck it Give me a reason why I shouldn't just start claiming something Give me a reason why I shouldn't go sprayin' dumpin' Give me a reason I'm asking for a reason