Intro

There’s some things that I’ll take to my grave

There’s some things I don’t think I should say

I don’t’ think that I’m somebody you can save

I don’t I know I kinda like it that way

Daddy loved to get high

In his room watch the time go by

Needles allon his bed

I couldn’t go in and I didn’t know why

Momma she used to cry

20 years by momma still cries

Momma talk suicide

Hate saying it but I don’t wanna lie

I still need you I feel like I’m still young

I’ve been so lost I’ve been so gone

I’ve been so drunk that I can stay numb

I be standing with you when the day come

Look at my smile, how does it look to you

I put it on so I can feel like I’m bullet proof

Product of environment, oh look at the irony

Grew up so nice but that changed up entirely

I found benzos the same time I found love

Like, what a mix, oh what a drug

I was 18 I was fucked up

Like living in my car but still untouched

They talk about my older ways

Said I’m fucked up wasn’t raised right

Wow, you know you never judge a book by its cover page

I’ve been standing since I was first on my bed

When my uncle lost his life and died inside mine instead

Yeah uh, you take a second to picture

10th grade didn’t know how to deal I turned to liquor

Another family member gone, all I knew was a song

Writing bars ain’t enough, I pop bars like they gone

Til my homie’s car crash, went to jail that night

Woke up, what the fuck happened high as a kite

I called my momma she ain’t answer, she pissed off as fuck

Wish I had a dad to call but I’m shit out of luck

Then on top of that I blew my whole first advance, which means I got money, blew it all, owe it all back

Cuz my records ain’t selling and I’m too hot for shows, no believes in my recovery, I’m gone as a ghost

Yeah it’s me against the world ain’t it, I love that shit so I took that bitch and I made it mine

Yeah, you see my best friend stole from me thousands of dollars, when I was down and I was broke and had nothing to bother

I had a dog that needed feeding, ain’t have shit for the collar

and a landlord trying to get money to feed his daughter

Had a dad dying on my hands asking for help

I went to London got him off heroin by himself

I took care of my sister to the best of my abilities

Helping mom through her depression that shit is killin’ me

But I guess that is just the will in me

Think that I’mma fail after that you’re kidding me

I say ya man, you’re kidding me

Failing after that, I said ya man you’re kidding me

Every moment in my life came at me with aprice

And I never had the cash but I would always roll the dice

Like I never thought twice, I was destined for the lights

I look above to my family for a message every night

And I swear I hear ‘em talk to me, full volume like the show

Every time that I feel down I look up and then I know

A sad soul that’s for sure, I do this all for you

Myself and my family that’s the funeral crew