Upon Reflection

Reflectin', I reflect, I probably haven't been the best I've been away, I've been depressed Been tryna raise you with a cheque Now I can blame it on success and claim that I just need money Makin' up for lost time you can't get back on no Rollie In the mornings we connect in ways we haven't done I pray them school runs would turn into a marathon It's funny how I always work from home But don't get home from work It's funny how I pray you grow and work but don't get home from church Now I'm reflectin' through my sentences, that's just a lonely verse I made a promise in my foreign whip so that I won't reverse Now I'm speedin' down memory lane Runnin' out of petrol almost every day Reflectin' how I treated every woman that I sexed And now my daughter's nearly ten it's like I found my common sense I guess it's easy to regret, like it's easy to finesse But now I finally got the message I can CC all my friends We got kids the same age We used to roll the whole day, we got older then we went our own ways We ain't spoken in a minute, you been on my mind for hours When it's all said and done it'll be Written in loads of flowers on the coffin You been my nigga from we cotting First tooth, first coupé, first college First zoot, first move, first bondage First bar, 32, verse honest Reflecting how I'm treating all these members of my family You a friend or you my family It depends, if you just turn up to the Grammys and you didn't have a shoulder or a brandy When my show was half full in the Academy, embarrassed to come out When there was holes up in my couch At home playing cat and mouse There was rodents in my house You said I never had drive, but now you're one chauffeuring around Too much reflectin' Too much reflectin' Too much reflectin' Making mirror crack, seven years bad luck now, yeah Hate your reflection, you're still lookin' back Wishin' for what you had Didn't know what you had Don't break the mirror I reflect on my career, I think about the wonder years See, once I went to number one all other numbers underwhelm me Top ten just left me feelin' like a failure Top twenty, now you feel like euthanasia You're heavy breathing in the label and they're waitin' to excel you You think you've had your heyday and they feel they'll Tony Bell you All them diamonds in your ring that had you dancing like a girl group Mean nothing, the something that you're lovin' dissembled you Pray for the change to come Came and it's changin' you No way was a chain enough 'Cause the paper keeps changin' up Pray for the change to come And it came and it's changin' ya No way was a chain enough 'Cause the paper keeps changing up I think about Chip from time to time The truth is we both made a difference in our lives And it's petty that we couldn't put those differences aside We left it under troubled water and the bridge is still on fire All those times you reached out to have a talk on it I wasn't really ready for no walk on it Same brother, different mother, same orphanage But when you're from a broken home you shouldn't auction it Closed doors turn into revolvin' doors The internet just made the world smaller They don't even own a business but involved in yours Staring at a meme with an open jaw Reflecting on my teens there was Photo shops and nobody was Photoshopped Still everything was crystal clear without Scrollin' through a thousand pictures til they disappear Focus, now you're out the room but your kid's in there I guess the real Black Mirror's here Too much reflectin' Too much reflectin' Too much reflectin' Makin' mirror crack, seven years bad luck now, yeah Hate your reflection, you're still lookin' back Wishin' for what you had Didn't know what you had Don't break the mirror Don't break the mirror Too much reflectin' Makin' mirror crack, seven years bad luck now, yeah Hate your reflection, you're still lookin' back Wishin' for what you had Didn't know what you had Don't break the mirror