Changes.

I'm sick of the cliches you say stay in your own lane but I drive drunk I see bliss in a weird way happiness in dark times and I like lust Women and commitment shit I veer stray cause I spite trust Every promise I make is a sheer sized lie that you just bite up I can deface, go silence of the lamb on any emcee that I decides sucks You gonna need a priest cause i've been told no like way too much I've been slept on like way too much I've been fucked over like way too much That's why I'm a bully on the mic like the kids in school who would take my lunch Beat my ass and hate my guts See my past as a lesson I'm supposed to learn A lesson that I'm suppose to past like math class but with both I didn't pass I flunked Almost went to class with a galley gun Almost OD'd just last month cause I'm sick of all the pressure this music brings "Nevv you gotta best get better with each new release" But I still get depressed over usual things I suck with money but I still do invest every penny in myself Put my money where my mouth is to redirect what my future brings I've took your shit and I washed it down with your sewer water I speak from the heart man my truest calling I write about shit that I've actually lived I don't write these songs just to hoot and holla I wish I could achieve what I feels missing but there's some things I can't change And I wish I coulda done something's different but with that I have no say Only lord knows every chance I've had and every chance that I would waste So when I talk to god man he doesn't answer but I still do try to pray And I still do try to write my wrongs even if they stay the same But there's some things I can't change No there's some things I can't change And only I know how much I've lost but some things don't remain Cause there's some things I can't change No there's some things I can't change I wish, my dad, never saw me in some handcuffs And I wish, I had, a chance to meet both my grandpas And I know, I am, not the easiest to deal with Wish that my sister and I never fought so much, wish my momma could see that Just because I wrote the song scars Doesn't mean I hate a single person Doesn't mean I wanna bombard My family tree and try to even circum Stances I would love to try to get back Relationship that I would love to redact Wish I never did wish I never please Lord forgive me for my hatred This hateful force within me It's just pains me sore for the lack of support I'm getting They say grab the bull by the horns even if it's Saintins horns I'm gripping What you take me for some poor and wimpy Fucking rapper chump that doesn't have enough to try to flash or stunt and can't afford a ten speed Ordinary Is not what I am Im stuck in my past I'm in this guilt trip like Barbra Streisand The weight of this world is all in my hands I wish I had someone to lean on Wish nobody could see me like I'm John Cena I've been a cheater Cupid has turned his own back no one will listen and no one will love me not even Athena That is the reason why I keep on singing I keep on rapping bout tragedies love and disparity cause When my back is push against the ropes it is me, myself, are the only ones I will believe in I wish I could achieve what I feels missing but there's some things I can't change And I wish I coulda done something's different but with that I have no say Only lord knows every chance I've had and every chance that I would waste So when I talk to god man he doesn't answer but I still do try to pray And I still do try to write my wrongs even if they stay the same But there's some things I can't change No there's some things I can't change And only I know how much I've lost but some things don't remain Cause there's some things I can't change No there's some things I can't change