Colored Dreams / Killers Pt. 2

Yeah

Mama, I just killed a man, body is still tremblin'

Can you feel my hands?

Don't shed no tears, mama

Look, I said, "Mama, I just killed a man

Body's still tremblin', can you feel my hands?"

Don't shed no tears, mama

Man convicted in the shooting death of Milwaukee teenager

Will be behind bars until he's at least eighty years old

Police said, Demario Denell Jackson shot into a crowd

During a fight and killed a fourteen year old.

Our Jonah Kaplan reports from court

I guess, I just gotta chill for twenty years

Till the judge say that it's okay to come out

I need an escape and a way to run out

People say that they love you, but you ain't breakin' me out

I'll probably die up in this motherfucker, shit

I've accepted that and I now I'm findin' peace, uh

Long nights, I've been tryna sleep

But I can't, so let me write you this apology

This for your girl, look I'm sorry mama

I put a bullet in 'em, I took your heart from you

I killed your man and now you forced to be apart from him

Your daughter walkin', who gon' catch when she start runnin'?

I was only nineteen, doin' foolish things for colors

Your tears in the court room, I can tell you loved him

I thought I was bein' gangster when I took his life

Now, I can barely sleep through a night

I get it now, fuck these colored dreams, shit

I get it now, fuck them colored dreams

Fuck these colored dreams

Fuck them colored dreams, shit

I guess, I just gotta chill for twenty years

Shit, might as well apologize for the rest

This to my brother, I claimed I loved you more than the rest

If I really loved you how come I guided you to your death?

You was only twelve when I got locked up

Pops shook, no role models

So the block looks like the only option

Should have made you put them Glocks down

But instead, I showed you how to get it poppin'

And you took to it, nah you was never shook to it

Even if trouble wasn't around, you would look to it

Throwin' up set, you let them know you wasn't no

Bitch, till you run into multiple crips

You let them **** know you would be down for your ****

Thinkin' in your head, big bro will be proud of a ****

I hate to have to be the way for you to go

What's even worse I couldn't make it to your funeral

Fuck them colored dreams

Shit, fuck these colored dreams

Fuck them colored dreams

Look mama, I know I killed that man

Still remember tremblin' when you felt my hands

Don't shed no tears, mama

I know, I won't be home for years mama

I know you feel like a failure to all your peers, mama

You've been a blessin' to me

I've been a curse since birth to ya

Made shit worse for ya

They let me out the second I wouldn't even search for ya

It only make it harder, you cared so much

That you would kill for me

I get your letters and I wonder how you still love me

You say your pray every night

And you still feel for me, shit if you could

I know you probably do this bid for me

Shit, so with this being the last time that I speak to you

I want you to know, I love you with everythin' in me

It's insane to me, you share DNA with me

We polar opposites, I know I failed you mama

Wish I could be your accomplishment

So as I stand on this chair, writin' this letter

Noose around my neck, the only way I do better

Is if I leave you now, 'cause you been beaten down

From them other things, I ain't give you shit

A mother brings, I get it now, fuck these