Overthinking

I try not to overthink

But what if backers fronted me with money

Like I drove a Brinks truck?

You outta luck

'Cause what I'm jottin' is career endin'

Atmosphere bendin' to whose ear lendin' the fear

That they'll see it appear trendin'

On the sites in they web browsers

I've dodged bullets, demons

Chicks who try to get inside of a celeb trousers to extort 'em

Fake pregnancy and post a picture just for likes out of boredom

Sometimes I think that could've been me

From how I used to spend free time out in NC

NY, LA, well, trips havin' meetin's up in capital

Which coulda blew me up

And had my haters duckin' shrapnel

But it wasn't meant to be

I used to wonder why, collapsin' under my

Blunders by the time that I undone the tie

I had to wear while up in court when I was sued

But now I see it's not the size of your problems

It's how it's viewed, so I'm thinkin'

You either change the way you see things

Or keep pokin' at a hive and wind up gettin' bee stings

'Cause I was lookin' up to DBoys pushin' Sebrings

A steering wheel and three rings

Keep a bank roll and drop a G-string

We sing they praises when they servin' time

If it's moms who they were servin'

Would I think that they deserve a dime?

Let me think, hell no

And that's off the top like a elbow

That fell low from the turnbuckle

Or maybe I'm just overthinking

Or maybe I'm just overthinking

Everybody got flaws, includin' me, I'll admit that

I'm just a kid born in the city

Where the skinny **** die tryna get fat

And sit at the round table

Thinkin' once I found a down label

We could build a foundation if the ground stable

My very first contract I signed jerked me

Stuck a toe inside of waters that one would define murky

And I almost drowned with bricks tied to both ankles

That's how it all goes down behind the scenes

I know what you thinkin'

How you slip up if your mind is keen?

Know-it-all, smarty-pants, they woulda hemmed your designer jeans

I was green with a dream, and if it manifested

These anorexic pockets would have hundred grand investments

My pops wouldn't have to find a job again

And maybe my aunties wouldn't be beefed out

'Cause that's a problem when they sister gone

They know she would insist upon

Buildin' back up a consistent bond

Until they not existin' on the planet

Or maybe I'm just overthinking

Or maybe I'm just overthinking

All these thought inside my head keep me up at night

I Q&B, plug in my earbuds, let it bump, and write

Something heavy or is it something light?

Do I base it on Pump and White?

Or thoughts about Trump and right?

When conservatives

Can talk about these haters and how payback triggers nervousness

Revenge is best cold when you serve the dish with no preservatives

But maybe the just ain't the track for that

You do the multi-syllables, the acrobats

I need to knock it out the park

Crack the bats with championship back-to-backs

Anyone who's tryna shortchange me is payin' active tax

I'm just sayin'

**** never wanted see me win

Part of the reason why I been through these situations I'm in

Maybe it's in God's plan and I reached my fullest potential

'Cause I felt that I was dealt the odd hand

If I play my cards right, then I could win it all

But what if I lose myself?

Every second, let every minute fall

Yo, or maybe I'm just overthinking

Or maybe I'm just overthinking

And all so-called civilized peoples

Have increasingly become crazy and self-destructive

We confuse signs, words, numbers, symbols, and ideas

With the real world

Most of us would have rather money than tangible wealth

And a great occasion is somehow spoiled for us unless photographed

And to read about it the next day in the newspaper

Is oddly more fun for us than the original event