Lyrics

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-
Staring at my life, there's so much yet to be done
The finish line is in sight, but weak and weary, I run
I'm tired, change is evident, heaven sent me His son
So I'm hired to be medicine, help me give to just one
Mama use to always say I'm living life on life's terms
I struggle with tight turns
Your mother will fight first
In trouble my pipe burst
I'm cussing with fighting words
I'm nothing but Christ heard
The rumblings of my hurts
Still, I made it (the single mother's only child)
She's in heaven now, but she told me
"Son, you better hold it down"
Yes ma'am, but I'm hurting
Coach is screaming, "Walk it off"
It's lighting coach (call it off)
Keep writing coach? Oh, yeah, flaws and all
Oh, I'm here, hoping the food l'm feeding leaves you full
A flawed cook trying to follow the recipe to the book
Don't deviate, don't add more
Don't take away my past songs
Will pave the way for dad's songs
I praise by faith I last long (I can't change my life)
I'll be the death of me, yeah
I can't change my life
Without you helping me (I can't change my life)
I can't change my life
I'll be the death of me, yeah
I can't change my life (I can't change my life)
Without you helping me (I can't change my life)
Without you helping me, yeah
Drinking from broken cisterns
My hope is some will listen
I spoke only what was given
And wrote only what was written
Walking roads that I came for
Every step was so painful
Weather beaten with no raincoat
My past is so shameful
(I struggle) with discouragement
I struggle with my anger
Lord, I struggle with my doubt
Hoping I'm making Jesus famous
I struggle with this gluttony
I struggle with "I don't know"
I struggle with "what if the world don't feel this song?"
Father, help me to believe that
After all my disappointments
I'm called and still appointed
To walk in this anointing Father
Hope differed has made my heart sick
Is there a balm in Gilead for the faith that I walk with?
I stand burdened behind the curtains, uncertain that
I'm the person you really want
Hear the thoughts insecurities haunt
It's the man inside the mirror
(Yeah) man behind the mirror
Bare soul to my Father who's drawn near to my confessions
I can't change my life (hey)
I'll be the death of me, yeah
I can't change my life
Without you helping me (I can't change my life)
I can't change my life
I'll be the death of me, yeah
I can't change my life (I can't change my life)
Without you helping (without you helping me, yeah)
I can't change my life
Face to face with failure
Sleeping with guilt many nights
Grieving as disobedience leaves me screaming
"I can't change my life"
Haunted by time wasted
Did stay in the club too long?
Hurting the people, hurting waiting on my songs
I can't change my life
A painful childhood scarred by Mom's tear filled nights
Born bearing her burdens, still hurting
But (I can't change my life)
All the bridges I burned
Are still on fire in my rearview
People I was near to and dear to
I can't change my life
Father forgive me
I'm blood washed and sanctified
But would the church kick me out
If they knew I still cuss at time?
What would they think? What would they say
And what would they write?
My flaws are amplified father 'cause You gave me a mic
Judged by hypocrites breaking their own word daily
Doing what they never say, Lord, this world gone crazy!
Father save me from myself
I'm not built to do life without you
Extend mercy and grace
When the times I fight and doubt you, Father
Father, I'm sincerely yours and yours alone
You're the author and finisher of my life's song
Help me, with me
Use every tear and heartbreak
As fuel to change this world
'Cause only pain can make a pearl
I'm a flawed clay vessel
Living on the potters wheel
Made over to be made over again
And I'm sealed by tears and
Use my flaws as a way to show me mercy and grace
Never let me get comfortable with them
But with them, I'll seek your face
My hope in glory
Is that You wrote this true story
Father go before me
I'm copyrights of what you recorded
Use my worse regrets
My most shameful moments
My hurts tears and sweat
My most painful moments
As fuel to my fire
So I can blaze a new path
I'm laying the truth bare
And paying my dues fair
The cobblestone streets of rocks
That rolled under my feet are gone
In me do a new thing
And write a new song
I can't change my life
I'll be the death of me, yeah
I can't change my life
Without you helping me, yeah (I can't change my life)
I can't change my life
I'll be the death of me, yeah
I can't change my life (I can't change my life)
Without you helping (without you helping me, yeah)
I can't change my life
Written by: Rodney D Hunter
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