If Only

Where have you gone, old friend, lately? Just a boy in a suit So much joy to pursue Have you left me here waiting to grow up on my own? On this road, all alone? I am a desert of unfulfilled memories Skeletal pictures of that which will never be. What it is we dream. Lost in the thoughts of what never was, A child in the storm of madness because death calls, Unspoken, unseen. If only we hadn't listened To ambitions that were far beyond our reach. If only there was a way To take back yesterday You'd still be here with me. Why, oh, why Oh, why, oh, why. If only You were a second late To dream about yesterday. Why, oh, why Oh, why, did I? If only You never came for me. Where have you gone, Willow, lately? Just a girl in a dress With the world to impress. This morning I could feel the changes. Shadows on the wall, Laughing as we fall. All of my moments are fractured behind me, The toy of a girl that shattered inside of me, All before I said, "I do." And why does the silence simulate violence The cold and the quiet screams in defiance. Where did I misstep? Where did I lose? If only I had listened To the voices telling me to take it slow. If only I had known. Would I have chosen another road? Oh, if only I could let go. Why, oh, why, Oh, why, oh, why. If only. If only I could be home. Oh, why, oh, why. If only. If only. If only I had never gotten a letter. If only I had never wanted for better. If only I didn't stay up at night and miss you. If only I didn't feel like I feel when I'm with you. If only I was never lonely, And felt the city calling my name. If only I was never lonely. If only I never came. Why? Why? Why, oh, why, Oh, why, oh, why. If only I never fell in love with you. If only. If only.