Fighting to Get Out

The sky is falling on my dream Bringing chaos to my hell I won't get hysterical No the past is dead and I'm standing outside your door I know paradise within Why am I frightened? Why am I frightened? To go in To go in I'm screaming but no sound emits Tears are streaming But my face isn't wet Words are forming but I haven't spoken yet I try to know myself but I'm complex You wouldn't understand me Who'd blame you? Not me So I sit gently rocking myself Looking further than my eyes can see Something stirs within me And it's fighting to get out I sit gently rocking myself Looking further than my eyes can see Something stirs within me And it's fighting to get out Is this love? Is it I try not to dwell on this So I bash those thoughts away and I stand here connected now I'm flowing with my day and I'm Sitting close to my fear But I'm not breaking down Tears fall like straight words My tears fall like straight words Escaping I'm screaming but no sound emits Tears are streaming But my face isn't wet Words are forming but I haven't spoken yet I try to know myself but I'm complex You wouldn't understand me Who'd blame you? Not me Oh so I sit gently rocking myself Looking further than my eyes can see Something stirs within me And it's fighting to get out I sit gently rocking myself Looking further than my eyes can see Something stirs within me And it's fighting to get out I sit gently rocking myself Looking further than my eyes can see Something stirs within me And it's fighting to get out Is this love? Is it love? Won't get hysterical I won't get hysterical Is it? The past is dead