Altruistic Veneer

I'm holding onto misguided veneer, altruistic veneer

The crater filling my pride & self-worth to the brim

Desperately shadowing my bleeding vulnerability

I'm skimming my way as much as I can to hide my brokenness

This self-righteous blinding & yearning for a blissful confirmation

In place of meaning

Content to contend with myself, albeit on dubious standards

Built on these compromises

In the process losing out, looking at my pitiful self & numbing the guilt

Constantly ticking where I stray

Lumps in the throat, sprout up at this uneasy interval

The future teems with purposeless images, blurred & bleak

When structures plague the entirety of my breath

But the devotion of pointing the blame…