How Selfish I Seem

Every cell is always pushing me but my decision comes so slow

To satisfy another vibe and not just my ego

'Cause all this overthinking's got me thinking

How we go from us to strangers

Can I overcome myself, make putting you first second nature?

Born to be

Dead to me

The waters run deep underneath me

I'm waiting for him patiently

Confront my feelings every day

Do I deserve you or am I just meant to drift away?

Time and time again I cut you out before we settle in

Too much of a coward to keep you close as a friend

Into my skin bores a failure that lingers

Wipe clean the blood as I pick at the splinter

How selfish I seem

The waters run deep underneath me

I'm waiting for her patiently

Confront my feelings every day

Do I deserve you or am I just meant to drift away?

The waters run deep

Underneath me

I'm waiting for you patiently

Confront my feelings every day

Do I deserve you or do I just drift away?

Another shallow grave

Another chance to fuck this up

An emotional dead end to add to the cycle

Never ends

And win or lose it's just another time

Another way and I can't take this anymore