Let It Go (With tobyMac & Sonny)

My mama gave me up

When I was four years old

She didn't destroy my body

But she killed my soul

Now it's cold

'Cause I'm sleeping in my backseat

Understand the spirit's willing

But my flesh is weak

Let me speak

I never had a chance to dream

Ten years old and finding love in dirty magazines

Miss December, you remember

I bought you twice

Now I'm thirty plus and still paying the price

Had a sister that I barely knew

Kind of got separated by the age of two

Same mama, different daddy

So we couldn't fake it

I saw my sister's daddy beat her

In the tub naked

Take it serious

The demons in a man's mind

The same man on rape charges

Now he's doin' time

Crack followed and like daddy

Prison, thirteen years

Haven't seen her

Guess she's traded tears for fears

Shout

Shout

Let it all out

These are the things I can do without

So come on

I'm talking to you

So come on

Sex was how I made it through

Without someone to teach you love

What else is there to do?

See where I'm from

They call you gay, say you ain't a man

Show 'em you ain't no punk

Get all the girls you can

A simple plan

That still haunts me even now today

Back to seventeen

And got a baby on the way

No G.E.D

All I see is failure in my eyes

If you're listening

And remember, I apologize

I was raised fallen in the church

Made mistakes

And heard the Lord's calling in the church

After service on the parking lot

Getting high

Wanted to be accepted

So bad I was willing to die

Even tried

To tell the pastor but he couldn't see

Years of low self-esteem and insecurities

Church taught me how to shout

And how to speak in tongues

But preacher teach me how to live now

When the tongue is done

Help me

Shout

Shout

Let it all out

These are the things I can do without

So come on

I'm talking to you

So come on

Listen to me, talking to you

See how, see how

(Sole survivor, sole survivor)

(We will survive but)

I just wanna let it go

(Sole survivor, sole survivor)

(We will survive but)

I just wanna let it go

(Sole survivor, sole survivor)

(We will survive those patronize us)

Just wanna let it go

(Sole survivor, sole survivors)

(We'll survive)

Jesus please on my knees

Can't you hear my crying

You said to put it in your hands

And Lord I'm really trying

You wasn't lying when you said

You reap what you sow

Like that night mama died

It's hard to let it go

You adopted me, cared for me

Changed my name

But I cursed at you

Lied to you, left your pain

It's not strange

I can still see it in my head

To know for hours

You were lying there in that bed

If you're listening to this record

If it's day or night

If your mama is still living, treat your mama right

Don't be like me

And let that moment slip away

And be careful

'Cause you can't take back what you say

To my real mama if you listening

I'm lettin' it go

To my father, I forgive ya

'Cause you didn't know

That the pain was preparation for my destiny

And one more thing, Lord

Let my son be a better man than me

Shout

Shout

Let it all out

These are the things I can do without

(Time to let it go)

So come on

(Can't you hear me?)

I'm talking to you

(I'm talking to you)

So come on

You in the corner

You in the back

Come on

Let's shout

Shout

Let it all out

(You don't have to take your life)

These are the things I can do without

(You don't have to cut your wrists)

So come on

(You don't have to hide behind sex)

I'm talking to you

So come on

(Just wanna let it go)

Come on