Crashing Up

Ever thought about getting to know yourself?

Well, I did, and sometimes I wish I didn't

You can't cancel plans on the voice in your head

Sometimes it's mine, sometimes it's someone else

And it's not even an actor that I like

I guess that's kinda self-destructive

When you ask, I'll say I'm only messing

Open up my chest and you'll find a big red button and a warning not to press it

But the text has faded off

It's just a guide, it's window dressing

And I still need you

I'm torn apart, I just needed a friend

And do I want to?

I've fallen down, I'm crashing up again

Stepped out

Called the Saviour Complex Anonymous hotline and got the dial tone

Guess you can't save everyone

Especially if you've not been to the dentist in four years and you're allergic to saving money

Searching symptoms online

Why do I feel so tired all the time?

Starting to miss the H in my ADHD

Worry all my friends secretly hate me

And I'll show them because, well...

I couldn't even look in the mirror this morning

Had a shower with the light off

Couldn't face looking at my skin

Thought it best to leave the flat with false confidence than crippling embarrassment

I hate the sound of my own voice

I hate the sound of my own voice

Life's just an invoice you can't cash in

Clothes soaking wet from a dip in Big Guilt River

Chucked all my pennies in but still no wishes richer

And I can't stop looking at that picture

What goes down must come crashing up

But I wish the crashing would come crashing quicker

I just know that you'll be fine and that I'll be even better, yeah

And I still need you

I'm torn apart, I just needed a friend

And do I want to?

I've fallen down, I'm crashing up again

And I still need you

I'm torn apart, I just needed a friend

And do I want to?

I've fallen down, I'm crashing up again

But I do appreciate you being here

I'm just knackered, you know

There's a lot going on

And, uh, yeah

I'm doing a lot of talking, but

I'm sick of the sound of meself, you know

I'm sorry I never got back to ya

But I'm trying