If I Could Learn

Am I still lost

Or am I holding onto memories of

People who don't even think about me

I shut the door on those days

When the rose gold tint faded away

And I kept second guessing everything

If I could learn to love again

If I could learn to love

So fall asleep

Just to wait out the apathy

Or blend into your surroundings

If I carry this with me

It can't be for nothing

I want my life to mean something

If I could learn to love again

I'd take my heart into my own hands

Like it'd make a fucking difference

If I could learn to love again

I'd take my heart into my own hands

Instead of finding ways to pretend

If I carry this with me

It can't be for nothing

I want my life to mean something