Dont Talk About It (sad version)

Don't ask me how I'm doing, I'm gonna lie to you

I feel the need to please my people, it's just what I do

So dry your tears, I always got you, ain't as bad as it seems

I can't imagine if I lost you, you mean too much to me

I'm writing paragraphs to beg you not to end it all tonight

'Cause I know that you would always do the same for me, right?

If the roles are reversed and I was fading away

You'd take my thirteen reasons why and give me a million to stay

What do you mean you can't talk right now? I know I was a burden

No one wants to talk to me when I'm really hurting

And this is why I lie, why I smile and fake it all

Being broken isn't hot to you, depression's a turn off

So turn it off, pretend again that everything's okay

Save the mental breakdown, save the tears, ignore the pain

Wait till you're alone so no-one sees you at your worst

'Cause the more you open up, the more it fucking hurts

Oh, nothing that I do for you is ever good enough

Get out of my head, you ruined everything I love

Can't even go home, the memories might eat me alive

I'm dying, but I'm trying to survive

I'm trying not to cry, I'm trying to provide

I'm lying to myself when I say that everything is fine

No self-care if there is no self-love

How do I remain selfless as I create more cuts?

Why do they stare like I'm a freak in a cage?

Do you really fucking think that I enjoy this pain?

Don't you know that I loathe it when you all press your little noses

As you kill a little piece of me and then, offer condolences

I think I'm out of my mind, and I don't want you to know

But I cut deep this time because I wanna let go

"Hang in there, baby!", it sounds so easy and basic

And it's easily said from someone who already made it

I ain't strong enough to make it through another day

And I'm so fucking tired of saying it'll be okay

Prove that shit or get out of my face

'Cause you don't know what's in my head or why I numb the pain away

And you don't care neither, so stop acting like you do

I don't need you to be fake, I just needed someone to talk to

Oh, nothing that I do for you is ever good enough

Get out of my head, you ruined everything I love

Can't even go home, the memories might eat me alive

I'm dying, but I'm trying to survive

I'm trying not to cry, I'm trying to provide

I'm lying to myself when I say that everything is fine

I've gotten so used to pretending to be who you need and not who I am

When will I learn my lesson? These are the confessions of an empath in need of a friend

Oh, nothing that I do for you is ever good enough

Get out of my head, you ruined everything I love

Can't even go home, the memories might eat me alive

I'm dying, but I'm trying to survive

I'm trying not to cry, I'm trying to provide

I'm lying to myself when I say that everything is fine