If It's Not God

Be pretty and don't make it look like you're trying

Told to be Esther when I felt like Goliath

When they were wrong, I could never keep quiet

I'd search for the truth and had faith that I'd find it

Set myself on fire

Let myself be the liar

All the Sundays I worried I'd disappoint my mom

'Cause I never understood some types of love being wrong

Something inside me was always steering left

What father picks a few just to leave the rest?

I heard a voice inside my head, they disagreed

So if it wasn't God, well, thank God it was me

Thank God it was me

They called me a sinner when I was a saint

Hiding in her bedroom, praying depression away

Killing herself for eternal life

And losing her interest to be a good wife

Set myself on fire

I let them call me the liar

All the Sundays I worried I'd disappoint my mom

'Cause I never understood a type of love being wrong

Something inside me was always steering left

What father picks a few just to leave the rest?

I heard a voice inside my head, they disagreed

So if that wasn't God, if that wasn't God, it was me

Thank God it was me

Me

Thank God it was me

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

If it was God, then I don't have to worry

He'll know why I left, why I ran in a hurry

So either way I choose, I'm not wasting my life

'Cause the voice in my head has always been right

All the Sundays I worried I'd disappoint my mom

'Cause I never understood a type of love being wrong

Something inside me was always steering left

No father picks a few just to leave the rest