Defeated

Suffocating alone

These thoughts over bearing and each night it’s wearing me

To where I believe

That what I had planned won’t become what I’ve seen

And each night it repeats

I breathe and I breathe

But I feel no release

God please take this from me

This haunting cold feeling of me versus me

Yeah I would rather be alone

Catch me running out of feelings

And I can’t take

Giving all I’ve got and yet I still break

I’m scared to fail, I’m left derailed

Catch me running out of reasons

To hold this weight

Can not bare the fact that I might not make It

Through this hell, that I help build

Now I can’t believe

That this tragedy has become my routine

Another night spent caged in

Fighting these demons who sound just like me

How am I supposed to just be

If I can’t even face this reality

That this is how it will be

Forever stopping myself from being me

I would rather be alone

Than in a room with my self

Catch me running out of feelings

And I can’t take

Giving all I’ve got and yet I still break

I’m scared to fail, I’m left derailed

Catch me running out of reasons

To hold this weight

Can not bare the fact that I might not make It

Through this hell, that I help build

Oh

Don’t you ever look back on what could have been

No

I’ll never look back on what could have been