I Don't Wanna Have To Lie

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody about how I feel

I can't eat, can't sleep, I'm on my knees, prayin' for a miracle

It's alright, what you say, like a knife, I know you like the taste of blood

I love you, I hate you, I have you, I lose you

I just want someone to love

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody

I just wanna light, I wanna smoke more cigarettes

You'd think that I like gettin' hurt

But I do it, I can't seem to help myself

I'm a big girl, but big girls get hurt, too, and they cry

You think that I'm tough enough

But I know when you look at me right now

That all you can see is blood

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody about how I feel

Waves of sadness, waves of grief

A river that feels like it'll never stop runnin'

And all you can see is the lies, I know it's all over my face

I can't change, I can't hide

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody about how I feel

Oh

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody about how I feel