Why Do The Pills Work

I always was a fearful kid Was always on my mother's hips She never had to question if I'd leave Who I am she couldn't fix 'Cause I'm just a different kind of sick And of all the kids, God gave her me I'd wake up while they would dream I'm in cold sweat, but I can't scream And I can white knuckle all the way through this I might be broken, but I'll say it's just bruises I'm in the fire, but I don't gotta burn 'Cause one a day will bring me back to the Earth I don't need pity for the cards I was dealt You say it's normal like you think it'll help And I'm not saying people don't have it worse But if there's nothing wrong with me, then why do the pills work? One time I tried to cut it off Thought if I could last, then I was strong But I only started panicking again It wasn't long until I knew That the diagnosis, it was true I don't wanna break, so I'm learning how to bend I am not weak for finding peace Don't you think I deserve sleep? And I can white knuckle all the way through this I might be broken, but I'll say it's just bruises I'm in the fire, but I don't gotta burn 'Cause one a day will bring me back to the Earth I don't need pity for the cards I was dealt You say it's normal like you think it'll help And I'm not saying people don't have it worse But if there's nothing wrong with me, then why do the pills work? Oh, why do the pills work? Oh, oh It's clinical and medical Out of control, and it gets old And God, I hate it It's in my mind, it's all the time It's hard to climb, it's my design I can't fake it It's in the air, it's everywhere And it's not fair and yeah, I'm scared But I'm not breaking I'm strong enough to open up I don't need love, what's done is done And I can't take it And I can white knuckle all the way through this It's not a life that somebody just chooses I'm in the fire but I don't gotta burn 'Cause one a day will bring me back to the Earth I don't need pity for the cards I was dealt You say it's normal like you think it'll help And I'm not saying people don't have it worse But if there's nothing wrong with me, then why do the pills work?