If I Had Never Lost My Mind...

If I had never lost my mind We'd make it past midnight without crying I could handle two glasses of wine, and We could live on the porch swing We'd have that white horse thing, a for-sure thing We'd be a rose with no thorns thing If I was a girl who wasn't deranged A little more stable, a little less strange If I, if only I Could settle the chemicals running my brain I could be happy and you would've stayed If I had never lost my mind If I wouldn't have freaked out Told you, "Pack up and get out" I wouldn't have come down Two miles down the road in my nightgown Life wouldn't look how it looks now If I was a girl who wasn't deranged A little more stable, a little less strange If I, if only I Could settle the chemicals running my brain I could be happy and you would've stayed If I had never lost my mind I couldn't stop it, and you couldn't take it I gave you my heart and I forced you to break it I forced you to break it 'Cause who wants a girl who's a little deranged A little too much and a little too strange? I don't know why? Oh, why? I can't seem to settle the shit in my brain If I could just change, maybe someone would stay But I lose my mind every time