Let Go

I'm a mess, it's a shade Just a curse, all alone I can't escape this flow Can't escape it on my own (Do you) feel the stress, hear the stirring A rage pushed low I tried not to let it show I tried to let it go I, I lie to my last breath that I'm not gone (not gone) I tried being honest once and lost count of all it cost I keep waking up as somebody new The absence of me is the proof Will I be defined by loss or just lost like everyone? I'm not sure you can hear me, but I'm ready Let's go I'm losing count of all the friends I've lost through energy If I'm not running empty, they don't want a thing from me I'll send a message out so you can have it clearly set Half a man without a soul, that's all you'll fucking get I wanna write it down, I wanna set in stone A new start to force the balance so I can feed my soul Three decades on, I'm still running They can never say that I'm not trying, oh Another void in the shade and it feels like drowning I swear on lives and a god I have no belief in I am nothing Is that what you wanted from me? And three decades on, I'm still running They can never say that I'm not trying I, I lie to my last breath that I'm not gone I tried being honest once and lost count of all it cost I keep waking up as somebody new The absence of me is the proof Will I be defined by loss or just lost like everyone? I'm sick of seeing ghosts in the broken frames at home Couldn't we have run together because the journey's too much alone? I've contemplated joining you sometimes when I get low So am I destined to face failure, never to find an afterglow? Oh no What the fuck have I become? No What the fuck have I become? I told you I need you You threw me to the wolves I promise it's over I'll find my own way through, yeah I lie to my last breath that I'm not gone I tried being honest once, lost count of all it cost And if that darkness catches up will I become Someone no longer defined by loss Or just lost like everyone? Oh Brace yourself, I'm about to fall off Brace yourself, I'm about to go off