Nothing Really Matters

I feel coming on an upset stomach This morning my red nose started to bleed My eyes lately have been tinted with jaundice I no longer really look like me I think I just hugged you for the last time The tears were so violent, streaming from my face into your shoulder And though the dust has settled, nothing really matters like you did Nothing really matters like we did I've become the girl who drinks on Monday Awaiting word to keep on with mistakes Driving home and cursing in my lonesome When it amounts to nothing and I wake I think we just gave up for the last time Oh, it's been a while since love was all we needed from each other And though we're rusted metal, nothing really matters like you do Nothing really matters like we used to I hate that I didn't learn a thing Except that I'm worse off, and you're better sober from me Can get this shirt off, but I still can't get what I need off my chest And to you, the rest of it still matters And though it's really over And though I might get better And though I'll find another And though I might get sober And though the rest is silence And though the branch is olive And though you'll never take it I can't help but keep thinking If I did something different If I could be forgiven If I was not this woman If I wasn't unwritten If you were still unshattered If I could break this pattern If you could just admit That none of it matters Nothing really matters like we did