Crashing Up

Ever thought about getting to you know yourself? Well i did and sometimes i wish i didn't You can't cancel plans on the voice in your head Sometimes it's mine sometimes it's someone else And it's not even an actor that i like I guess that's kinda self destructive When you ask i'll say i'm only messing Open up my chest you'll find a big red button And a warning not to press it But the text has faded off it's just a guide it's window dressing And i still need you I'm torn apart i just needed a friend Do i want to? I've fallen down i'm crashing up again Stepped out Called the saviour complex anonymous hotline And got the dial tone Guess you can't save everyone Especially if you've not been to the dentist in four years And you're allergic to saving money Searching symptoms online Why do i feel so tired all the time? Starting to miss the H in my ADHD Worry all my friends secretly hate me And i'll show them because, well I couldn't even look in the mirror this morning Had a shower with the light off Couldn't face looking at my skin Thought it best to leave the flat with false confidence Than crippling embarrassment I hate the sound of my own voice I hate the sound of my own voice Life's just an invoice you can't cash in Clothes soaking wet from a dip in Big Guilt River Chucked all my pennies in but still no wishes richer And i can't stop looking at that picture What goes down must come crashing up But i wish the crashing would come crashing quicker I just know that you'll be fine and i'll be even better And i still need you I'm torn apart i just needed a friend Do i want to? I've fallen down i'm crashing up again