Julia, East Coast

So I've hung up the dreams of you callin my name I refuse to show weakness, let you in on the pain Of how your shining absence cut holes in my chest I've grown good at deceiving, said my mother knows best Somebody told you I needed your help But you left me like dust on the books on your shelf Don't you think I was too young To understand how a man could look in the mirror Knowing all he threw out Julia, East Coast, you missed it all Flying high off the swing sets and catching my fall Julia, East Coast, your eyes in my skull Nearly 30 years now I still wait for your call Still wait for your call My last night in Virginia, they told me why We were cut from the same cloth but not the same side I felt mad at your blindness and your lack of shame I felt anger at the thought of your blood in my veins Somebody told you I needed your help But you left me like dust on the books on your shelf Don't you think I was too young to understand how A man could look in the mirror knowing all he threw out Julia, East Coast, you missed it all Flying high off the swing sets and catching my fall Julia, East Coast, your eyes in my skull Nearly 30 years now I still wait for your call (Julia, East Coast, you missed it all) Still wait for your call (Julia, East Coast, your eyes in my skull) (Julia, East Coast, you missed it all) You missed it (Julia, East Coast, your eyes in my skull) And I keep a paper with all the things that I'd say If heaven forbid you left for heaven or hell one day At the top of my list, there's a bunch of little lines that say How could you do this but actually I'm fine At the bottom of my list There's one thing that I wrote In the back of my mind there's a little white note It says I love you still, I forgive and I hope