Somebody Save Me

Daddy? (Huh?) Food's here (kept buyin' it when she gets it) Come eat (Alaina, I'm so tired) Just come eat (Alaina, I'll be there in a minute, I promise, stop) Well then wake up (shut that door) Somebody save me, me from myself I've spent so long livin' in hell Another pill as I start to spiral Message to my daughters I don't even deserve the father title Hailie, I'm so sorry I know I wasn't there for your first guitar recital Didn't walk you down the aisle Missed the birth of your first child Your first podcast, lookin' down, sweetie I'm so proud of how you turned out Sorry that I chose drugs and put 'em above you Sorry that I didn't love you enough to Give 'em up, how the fuck do I not love you More than a pill? Lookin' up to the ceilin' From this floor, wonder will Somebody save me, me from myself I've spent so long livin' in hell They say my lifestyle is bad for my health It's the only thing that seems to help Alaina, sorry that you had to hear me fall in the bathroom Sorry that I missed you gradu- wait, Nate, I should just congratulate you On being a dad to Carter and Liam, look at you Little bro, sorry I left you, sorry that I'll never get to Hold or hug my little nephews, Stevie, I'm sorry, I missed you Grow up, and I didn't get to be the dad I wanted to be to you Things I wanted to see you do, this is my song from me to you Sorry I gave up, but I'm just so defeated God, what the fuck do you want me to do? Somebody save me, me from myself I've spent so long livin' in hell They say my lifestyle is bad for my health It's the only thing that seems to help I've been starin' at that video of Hailie Almost daily of her playin' a guitar In hopes maybe that'd give me the power to fight But the addict in me's a coward He told me that I can't do it, had a second chance, blew it It's like I'm stuck inside an alternate reality, but I know (what?) I'll turn it around and be able to Walk her and Lainie one day To the altar as proud as can be Right now, I'm just weak As I fall further down in this deep hole And farther in the ground that I sink As they lower me in my coffin I feel the tears all fallin' down on my cheek I'm a lost cause, baby, don't waste your time on me I'm so damaged beyond repair, life has shattered my hopes and my dreams I'm a lost cause, baby, don't waste your time on me I'm so damaged beyond repair, life has shattered my hopes and my dream