Memories (I Don't Have)

Sometimes I think about why you left Was it my fault? Was it easy? Sometimes I block it all, better yet I disconnect from all feelings All my life I thought that actions speak louder than words But I started thinking how different I'd be if I hurt you, tell me Don't deal in lies Don't play with truth Staying fine when the odds are stacked against you Oh your advice of falling in love I hear you telling me Whatever happens, I have your back But the memories I don't have I told myself you took nothing away But then all of your shame became weight on my shoulders Convincing myself it would all be okay Like having faith Win a war without soldiers All my life I thought that actions speak louder than words But I started thinking how different I'd be if I hurt you, tell me Don't deal in lies Don't play with truth Staying fine when the world's against you Oh your advice of falling in love Oh I hear you telling me Whatever happens, oh I've got your back But the memories I don't have But the memories I don't have