some things (i've learned)

I wanted a party End of the summer Something exciting Something i'd remember I wanted a memory A movie scene ending Cop cars in the driveway But i keep forgetting Some things end quiet Some things end soft I don't need to scream it to prove i said it at all I wanted a ball gown A bouquet of roses Somebody who loves me And wants me to know it I wanted excessive Non stop affection So there isn't a moment Of doubting connection But some things need breathers And some people need space But i thought when you asked for alone time It meant i was something you hate But i can't control everything Everything changes And it doesn't matter How i feel about it And that makes me sadder I wish i had impact On all my surroundings Like if god knew i'd cry Then he'd change plans around me But some things are broken That don't need my help If i'm gonna repair anything Then it sure as hell should be myself