By Myself (Live In Texas)

How do you think I've lost so much? I'm so afraid that I'm out of touch How do you expect I will know what to do When all I know is what you tell me to? What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly? Do I hide my pride behind these bad dreams And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? Do I let it go and try to stand it? Or do I try to catch them red-handed? Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness? Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin I make the right moves, but I'm lost within I put on my daily façade, but then I just end up getting hurt again By myself (myself) I ask why (But in my mind, I find) I can't rely on myself (Myself) I ask why (But in my mind, I find) I can't rely on myself I can't hold on (To what I want when I'm stretched so thin) It's all too much to take in I can't hold on (To anything, watching everything spin) With thoughts of failure sinking in If I turn my back, I'm defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on Then they'll take from me 'til everything is gone If I let them go, I'll be outdone But if I try to catch them, I'll be outrun If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer By myself (myself) I ask why (But in my mind, I find) I can't rely on myself (Myself) I ask why (But in my mind, I find) I can't rely on myself I can't hold on (To what I want when I'm stretched so thin) It's all too much to take in I can't hold on (To anything, watching everything spin) With thoughts of failure sinking in How do you think I've lost so much? I'm so afraid that I'm out of touch How do you expect I will know what to do? When all I know is what you tell me to Don't you (know) I can't tell you how to make it (go) No matter what I do, how hard I (try) I can't seem to convince myself (why) I'm stuck on the outside Don't you (know) I can't tell you how to make it (go) No matter what I do, how hard I (try) I can't seem to convince myself (why) I'm stuck on the outside I can't hold on (To what I want when I'm stretched so thin) It's all too much to take in I can't hold on (To anything, watching everything spin) With thoughts of failure sinking in I can't hold on (To what I want when I'm stretched so thin) It's all too much to take in I can't hold on (To anything, watching everything spin) With thoughts of failure sinking Thank you guys very much!