Difficult

My double vision Is only amplifyin' everythin' he isn't 'Til I feel less attached and bored to death, but listen It's no one's fault, it's just my terrible condition, hmm And I've been thinkin' If I move out this year, I'll feel my parents slippin' Away and also, I'm just scared of that commitment I really think sometimes there's somethin' that I'm missin', hmm Oh, I know Spiralin' is miserable I should probably go back home Why does that feel difficult, difficult? Oh, I hope I wake up invisible I'd be someone no one knows I guess I'm just difficult To name this feelin' Would take a hundred thousand years, some kind of grievin' But over what I never had, so I've been speakin' To my therapist, I call her every weekend, hmm I meant to tell you How I've hated how we left things when it fell through 'Cause you were everythin' to me, where did you run to? Was it somethin' that I said that colored you blue? Hmm Oh, I know Spiralin' is miserable I should probably go back home Why does that feel difficult, difficult? Oh, I hope I wake up invisible I'd be someone no one knows I guess I'm just difficult, difficult Difficult (I) Difficult I've been drinkin' And stayin' up too late, relivin' bad decisions I thought eventually, my ranting here would fix it I really think sometimes there's somethin' that I'm missin' (hmm) Oh, I know Spiralin' is miserable I should probably go back home Why does that feel difficult, difficult? Oh, I hope I wake up invisible I'd be someone no one knows I guess I'm just difficult, difficult Oh, I know Spiralin' is miserable I should probably go back home Why does that feel difficult, difficult? Oh, I hope I wake up invisible I'd be someone no one knows I guess I'm just difficult, difficult