how's this?

I can feel the air Stuck in my chest when you say it I'm not going anywhere If I keep tryna do things my way And it's only cause you care that you're honest with me And I'm honestly too scared to tell you to shut up But I wish you would shut up sometimes How's this for trying How's this for pulling myself together, man I'm not even crying And it's the middle of the afternoon already I'm trying How's this for taking all your tips and tricks Pulled my bootstraps up like you told me But I'm getting even farther from the old me I tried to bring it up And in an unexpected turn of events you tried to cut me off Like a defensive little kid, you never did give it any thought When you tell me that you love me Is that supposed to be a sorry Cause all I really want Is you tell me that you know you were wrong Twenty years and counting I take you into account every move that I make Your voice is the loudest I'll scream above you till my voice breaks How's this for trying How's this for pulling myself together man I'm not even crying And it's the middle of the afternoon already I'm trying How's this for taking all your tips and tricks Pulled my bootstraps up like you told me But I'm getting even farther from the old me And I'm sick and I'm tired of your reasons You tell me my mind's an open wound I leave bleeding Been building a tourniquet a couple seasons now Can you see it Can you see it And I ripped out the splinter in my palm And I didn't flinch at all I didn't even call Now wouldn't you say that's progress I know that I'm not quite there yet But how's this?