Panic Attacks in Paradise

Typical of me to go and ruin the party Everybody says they love me, but I'm still brokenhearted They call me Polly Pessimism, I'm a macabre Barbie (I love you) My boyfriend wants to love me, but I won't let him I've been predisposed to trauma since I was 11 So I wrote a couple albums to let out some aggression I hate that I'm so Self-deprecating More comfortable in bad situations Sucker for a little devastation And this always happens Panic attacks in paradise Piña coladas, I'm terrified I swear I'm not cryin', the sun's just bright I'm havin' the best time of my life Panic attacks in paradise Hyperventilating under candy skies Tellin' myself that this is fine I'm havin' the best time of my life It's a big joke Ha ha, I love laughin' It's a big hoax Your self-help happy 'Cause I'm okay I'm pure propane On an open flame Watch me blow up My boyfriend wants to love me, but I won't let him I've been predisposed to trauma since I was 11 So I wrote a couple albums to let out some aggression I hate that I'm so Self-deprecating More comfortable in bad situations Sucker for a little devastation And this always happens Panic attacks in paradise Piña coladas, I'm terrified I swear I'm not cryin', the sun's just bright I'm havin' the best time of my life Panic attacks in paradise Hyperventilating under candy skies Tellin' myself that this is fine I'm havin' the best time of my life