Ghost

I tried it once before, but I didn't get too far I felt a lot of pain, but it didn't stop my heart And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up I tried it once before, and I think I might have messed up I struggled with the veins, and I guess I didn't bleed enough But maybe I'm alive 'cause I didn't really wanna die But nothing very special ever happens in my life Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be I tried it like before, and this time I made a deep cut I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough And I should've told my mother, "Mom, I love you" like a good son But this life is overwhelming, and I'm ready for the next one Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah I tried it once again, and I think I might black out I should've left a letter, but I had nothing to write about My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up The cutting part was easy, but regretting it is so fucked Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be I tried it once again and I think I went too far The man that I was meant to be I cut a little deeper, and the pressure stopped my heart The man that I was meant to be I couldn't tell my mother that I love her, I'm a bad son This life is overwhelming, and I'm ready for the next one