Just in Case (Reprise)

Yep, this seems about right

Let somebody in, I'm alone by the end of the night

It feels less than okay

Especially 'cause I thought this time-

I don't know why

I just thought she would stay

Wait, I thought she would stay

But she didn't stay 'cause I didn't say

I want you to stay, but stay for me

'Cause I deserve that for me

'Cause I am worth that and now

Now she's on her way, 'cause I never say

I want you to stay for me

And what if no one stayed

'Cause I've always been afraid just to say

So

Please don't abandon, well, me

Come back, let's watch some TV

I need you right here with me

Hanging out just like two best friends do

Yeah, you might say, "See you never"

But if I don't ask, I won't ever

Get anything, anyone that I want

And right now, well, that's you

So please don't abandon it all

Come back to me, you asshole

Nancy, just come back, I promise

There's more alcohol

Look, I'm sure you're already

Halfway to his place, but

Here's a voice note

Just in case

Fuck this fucking app, shit, this signal's fucking crap

Screw you, screw this

Great, my phone is out to get me

Why will no one let me just do this?

Ugh, Oliver's a git for saying all that shit

They're just so wrong

'Cause this is what I want, it's everything I've wanted

For so long

So why do their words spin, spin around in my head?

When it's all I've ever wanted and want still?

I can't stay far away, this is real, this is happening

Like, this is not a drill

And although deep inside, yeah I know, there is something there

That I can't seem to feel

I know, I know, that if this doesn't make it better

Nothing ever will

Still they spin, spin, spin

Those words

"Maybe there's a reason why you can't let go"

Still they spin, spin, spin

Oh fuck, my Uber's here

Fuck, thing's don't feel as they were

For the first time I don't feel like I'm someone's side character

I forced myself in that role, the friend who just cheers on

The friend who ends up with a guy when the end credits roll

But now I'm going to take the leading arc

Like I'm Oliver, exclamation mark

Like I could be the Rachel or Ross

And I know I can because

Though I have all this fear, and it will appear

When someone gets near

At least I know that after all these years

Know that I can let those fears go, yes

I can abandon it all

I'm out on the ledge and might fall

But that doesn't matter now

I'm no disco ball, I fear no one

Fully open to rejection

With no self defence or protection

No safety, no anything

Oh my God, what the fuck have I done?

I've just abandoned it all

Holy fucking shit, this is not a bit

Fuck, I'm such a git

Oh Christ, I sent her the voice note

She's gonna listen

Oh fuck, I'm just gonna delete it, unsend it

Shit, can you unsend stuff these days?

It might not have sent, I'm sure it didn't send

Fuck, fuck, woo

Does two ticks mean it's delivered?

Does that mean it's seen or delivered?

Am I even connected? Am I online?

My Wi-Fi is so shit

Did she get the voice note?

Did she get the voice note?

I got off the pla–

Wait what voice note?