EVANESCENCE / FINAL CALL

I took a second for some recollection

I'm still getting lost in the reminiscing

Call me when you're sober I can't see a message

Shit I'm getting lost in the evanescence

Troubled home I was raised in

Childhood trauma and depression before age ten

Hid inside my room I was caged in

Scared them four walls would box up and cave in

Seen the face of God three times now

Out the other side still turning ever light down

Hope my auntie looking down from the right cloud

Angelic demon putting screaming on my Soundcloud

I took a second for some recollection

I'm still getting lost in the reminiscing

Call me when you're sober I can't see a message

Shit I'm getting lost in the evanescence

Said I quit lines but I lied to your face

Gave up pills till I got em from a shrink

Up a couple days I'm forgetting how to wink

Sitting in the shower had to let that shit sink

Like fuck do you think

Been self destructing inside of this mink

Dripping through my trauma I got hangers round me

So I don't give a damn what you think about me

I got wings like the Angel 15

Dying every night that's the Ariel Pink

Shit is tearing up my heart thought that we was in sync

How you say a **** selfish when it's only been me

Nah, its gonna be me

Fuck a 27 club I almost missed the 23

I don't want regrets when I leave

I can't give you nothing you expecting of me

I took a second for some recollection

I'm still getting lost in the reminiscing

Call me when you're sober I can't see a message

Maybe in disguise that's a blessing

Yeah, distancing socially I don't got time for nobody to notice me

Traveling back to suburbia, swerving ya, hoping I finally can go to sleep

This cycle of meeting and leaving I'm pleading somebody just stick around permanent

Ghosting me for a reaction they bring up your name and I say I ain't heard of it

I know I'm not perfect I never attempted

But you tried to change me inside of this friendship

Give me some play then go right back to benching

Find me a New Girl she calling me Winston

I'm wincing the thought of you used to be positive, its just the opposite

Don't feel like opening up to a soul again, crazy I used to be talkative

I'm just a product of fucked up environments

Lately that's been a requirement

My loneliness sticking to me like entitlement

Never considered retirement

I'm just too complacent inside of this bedroom

Pacing with myself with the leg room

Thinking of places that I should just run to

Knowing that I could be dead soon

Last call for a real one

I could drink the pain away and pop till I feel something

Signing with the devil in the deets, I get a deal done

Letter to my folks before I go, I can seal one

If it wasn't for my **** and the drugs I would never know love

You can put it on a grave plot

I would trade my soul for a piece of the peace that was taken from me

Running back to game stop

And that's reel like a showtime

Bitch I'll probably make it to the top without a co-sign

I could make it there in no time

Used to the abandonment its standing in my profile

But you weren't the first or the last

So I let it all pass maybe I'm the real issue

You won't be the first or the last

Put a check on my past, its illegal to miss you

You're all alone

Does she love you? You'll never know

I'll love her 'til forever on

'Til she kills my soul, you're all that I'll know

You're all alone

Does she love you? You'll never know

I'll love her 'til forever on

'Til she kills my soul, you're all that I'll know

I was a lost boy, I was a lost boy in my room

Out in the shadows, out in the shadows in my room

Too much to handle, too much to handle on my own

I lit the candle, I lit the candle in my room