I Don't Like Myself (When I'm With You)

And I know that you're hurting bad You never hide it good Instead of leading with a broken heart Maybe let yourself off the hook And I know that you've got a deadbeat dad Who never fought for you Instead of making me a punching bag Maybe let me into your world And I would have your back Cause I don't like myself Whenever I'm with you Tell me do you feel it too? No, no, no, no Say it isn't true That I've been spending of all these years hating myself When I should have been hating you No, no, no, no Say it isn't true That I've been spending all of these years living through hell Just hoping my pain would kill you A codependent undertone That we can't admit And hurry up and take another shot So I can pay you for another hit Do you feel better when you tear me down? In front of all our friends You only love me when I'm bleeding out But then I crawl when you call And I'm playing again (Now and then I get haunted by your love) Cause I don't like myself (Now and then I get haunted by your love) Whenever I'm with you (Now and then I get haunted by your love) Tell me do you feel it too? No, no, no, no Say it isn't true That I've been spending of all these years hating myself When I should have been hating you No, no, no, no Say it isn't true That I've been spending all of these years living through hell Just hoping my pain would kill you Tell me why does it light you up when I'm down on myself? And why do you seem to disappear when I'm doing well? Tell me why do I keep good things that happen locked inside? And why did I hear from all our friends But you won't look me in the eye? Oh Cause I don't like myself After I hang with you Tell me do you feel it too? No, no, no, no Say it isn't true That I've been spending of all these years hating myself When I should have been hating you No no, no, no (Say it isn't true) Say it isn't true (Say it isn't true) That I've been spending all of these years living through hell Just hoping my pain would kill you Tell me why does it light you up when I'm down on myself? And why do you seem to disappear when I'm doing well? Tell me why do I keep good things that happened locked inside? And why did I hear from all our friends But you won't look me in the eye? Oh Cause I don't like myself After I hang with you