Barely Alive

I been backstabbed and that's the reason why I don't trust (Don't trust)

Why do I still love a man that really had me fucked up? (Fucked up)

Reason why I keep my guard up 'cause you'll never know (You'll never know)

Still fucked about the shit you did, but I won't let it show

You ever been through a heartache, you and your partner had to part ways? (For real)

Never felt so damn low, but still got up 'cause you don't get no break

I swear that life be light for me, but I take it to the chin

I know shit like this be happenin' 'cause I'm destined for the win (Destined for the win)

At this point, I ain't rappin', I'm just speakin' on what I'm goin' through

Keep things to myself 'cause I don't have no one to pour into

I'm not no fucked-up person, but I ain't sayin' that I'm perfect

So much to celebrate, but why I don't feel like I deserve it? (Why?)

Like, damn, I'm good at bouncin' back, but this shit hittin' a lil' hard

I don't give a fuck, I ain't stoppin' 'cause a bitch came too far

And my lil' sister lookin' up to me, see, that's my motivation

I never been so damn emotional about no situation (For real)

But I walk with my head high 'cause I got things to do

I know I'm a bad bitch, but I be goin' through it too

Influential, I see your favorite rapper doin' shit I do

I'll wipe my own tears, then jump right back in the booth

I'm always on some humble tings, but I could still go shit on 'em

These furry Hermès slides I got on, I spent your rent on 'em

I am not your opp, lil'-ass girl, I'm your big homie

I thought it was forever 'til you went and pulled that shit on me

I hate I gotta shit on you because I really loved you (I really loved you)

I need a CiCi prayer, God, deliver me a Russell

Mama ain't raise no sucker, though, might love you, but I don't trust you (Nah)

You fuckin' with them hoes over there, you know it's fuck you (Fuck 'em)