Don't Let Me Go

i don’t talk to my friends anymore i gave up and chose you

it was deeper than you coming around and killing the mood

i don’t think proper healing from all that ever came around

now it lives in my back pocket when i wanna bring you down

for me it’s yelling and blowing up at the little things

for you it’s lying and getting too angry when i drink

we’re in this too deep

deep down we both know

know it’s bad, but don’t let me go

caught a flight back home to rethink everything from these 4 years

tryna get people around me to tell me how i got here

you’re worried i’m leaving you

you get scared and insecure

that makes me wanna leave more

i don’t know what to do, no

was it a waste of time if we throw this all down the drain

or should we try to see what’s on the other side of pain

dirty looks from your side eye mentioning these certain names

can we grow the fuck up and get along fore i’m insane

resentment towards you every time i think about it

if it comes up you know i beat around it

til you throw me in the deep end of the reasons that we drowning

seasons turn to demons that we didn’t know were creepin cause our conscious ain’t allow it

now when i walk in anything could turn one little comment into shouting

patience is tested

all my relations protected

but by now i’ve lost these connections that had all my investment, yeah

maybe i’ve been taking you for granted

need a different view when i can’t stand it

everybody says we won’t be standing

soon as we stop being codependent

these games are something outta high school

when you say boy play by my rule

then i freak out over text but i don’t wanna face you so i say it was a typo

i come home, ima lose it

this ain’t the life i was choosing

all my friends they hear my excuses

holding on knowing it’s stupid

still gettin tested

with all your friends with suggestions

and family members that are starting to regret their investments, yeah

it’s been either breaking up or marriage

are we still takin that trip to paris

haven’t mentioned it in like a month

now i gotta sit down your parents