Why Do I Stay?

I told myself not to call you

Evidently, I fucked up

But all of my memories of you

Seem to be in this Solo cup

And I know told myself I'd never fucking fall for you again

But I said that shit before, now here I am on the floor

I'm just a masochist, I guess

I must get off on all the pain

'Cause I'm hard on myself for my mistakes

And I tell you I'm leaving but I stay

And I begin to the clean mess you made, blame it on my masochism, babe

I must get off on all the pain

'Cause I'm hard on myself for my mistakes

And I tell you I'm leaving but I stay

And I believe everything that you say, blame it on my masochism, babe

I told myself not to worry

Everything works out in the end

This what's best now for me

Being with someone that's a friend

But I should've told myself, if it happened once, it's gonna happen again

But I said that shit before, now here I am on the floor

I'm just a masochist, I guess

I must get off on all the pain

'Cause I'm hard on myself for my mistakes

And I tell you I'm leaving but I stay

And I begin to the clean mess you made, blame it on my masochism, babe

I must get off on all the pain

'Cause I'm hard on myself for my mistakes

And I tell you I'm leaving but I stay

And I believe everything that you say, blame it on my masochism, babe

You don't fucking deserve me, I do everything for you and it's never good enough

I'm so tired of loving you so much that it makes me sick

If you really loved me like you said you did, you would show it, but you don't

So I'm done

I must get off on all the pain

'Cause I'm hard on myself for my mistakes

And I tell you I'm leaving but I stay

And I begin to the clean mess you made, blame it on my masochism, babe

I must get off on all the pain

'Cause I'm hard on myself for my mistakes

And I tell you I'm leaving but I stay

And I believe everything that you say, blame it on my masochism, babe