Hours Outside in the Snow

I spent all of Christmas Eve fake angry at you for

Who knows what now or then?

And you spoke so fast, I just sat back, relaxed

And took you all in

I spent all of Christmas Eve trying to get warmer

After standing outside for hours, knowing at this point

I'd be lucky to get any sleep

And I'll toss and turn until the early morning

Happily ignoring that my blue jeans

Didn't do a fucking thing for me

Against this cold

Sober or not, I  locked everything you sent me

'Cause what's better than seeing

What I'm missing daily?

I guess what I'm trying to say is that

You might run, oh, but I won't hide

Shed an ounce of light

On my half-hopeless life

Don't let me go back

And though I'd like to say more

I guess I'll just duck and cover

Almost praying that you'll trip over

The cluster of words I laid out before having to leave

But since you've taken the time to read so carefully

Everything I've ever sent

I guess I'll spend the next few lines

Hoping and wishing

And thanking appropriately

You might run, oh, but I won't hide

Shed an ounce of light

On my half-hopeless life

You might run, oh, but I won't hide

Shed an ounce of light

On my half-hopeless life

To Erin: please read later

'Cause I don't think I have the heart

To let you read this now

But if I had a heart at all

You know that I'd know better

This isn't how you say aloud, oh, say aloud

To Erin (You might run) please read later (but I won't hide)

'Cause I don't think I have the heart (She an ounce of light)

To let you read this now (On this half-hopeless life)

But if I had the heart at all (You might run)

You know that I'd know better (But I won't hide)

This isn't how you say aloud, oh, say aloud (Shed an ounce of light)

(On this half-hopeless life) Don't let me go back

(This is Erin, I'm not here, but leave me a message and I'll call you back, bye)

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