numbers

I Took the sugar out of the cupboard

I Thought that if I made myself that smooth

You would love me more and more

Did what they told me to do

Count the numbers, size 42

Still too much to be worthy of your love

To be seen, to be loved, to be wanted, to be enough

On the wrong side of the scale

But the numbers won't reveil

Minus five

I felt the most alive

358 used to be the joy of a piece of cake

350, 350, 350 I weighed myself

I raised myself

The only thing I did not see was the life drain out of me

To be seen, to be loved, to be wanted, to be enough

(350 350 350 350)

To be seen, to be loved, to be wanted, to be enough

(350 350 350 350)

On the wrong side of the scale

But the numbers won't reveil

Minus five

I felt the most alive

I built a house out of bones but never felt so damn alone

Minus five

I felt the most alive

I put the sugar back in the cupboard

Erasing all the numbers that I wrote