I Do This All The Time

Look up, lean back, be strong

You didn't think you'd live this long

Be as one, hold on, steady stand

For as long as you think you can

Old habits die for a couple of weeks

And then I start doing them again

This sun is making me feel like I'm missing out on something

But if I went to your barbecue

I'd feel uncomfortable and not be sure what to say anyway

It's like when I go to your birthday drinks

To congratulate you being the age I already thought you were

Or not

I don't know

It's a miracle I've remembered at all

When I'm buried in the ground I won't be able to make your birthday drinks

But I will still feel guilty

You see, when the air warms up like this

It brings every single memory of you back

And it makes me so sick I can't breathe

Except I am still breathing, aren't I?

Sometimes I think that's the problem

Look up, lean back, be strong

You didn't think you'd live this long

Be as one, hold on, steady stand

For as long as you think you can

Be very careful out there

Stop trying to have so many friends

Don't be intimidated by all the babies they have

Don't be embarrassed that all you've had is fun

Prioritise pleasure

Don't send those long-paragraph texts

Stop it, don't

Getting married isn't the biggest day of your life

All the days that you get to have are big

Be wary of the favours that they do for you

They'll tell you I'm wrong, they'll tell you (I do this all the time)

They'll tell you I'm wrong, they'll tell you (I do this all the time)

So look up, lean back, be strong

You didn't think you'd live this long

Be as one, hold on, steady stand

For as long as you think you can

All you need to do, darling, is fit in that little dress of yours

If you weren't doing this you'd be working in McDonald's

So try and cheer up

I'm not sure

You're moving around too much

You need to stand still

Be more like Mairead

Shhhhhh

Stop showing off

You're a good girl

You're a good, tall girl

You're a good, sturdy girl

One day I would love to tell you

How the best night of your life was the absolute worst of mine

So look up, lean back, be strong

You didn't think you'd live this long

Be as one, hold on, steady stand

For as long as you think you can

Now and again you make complete sense

But most of the time I'm sat here feeling stupid for trying

My hunger times my impatience equals the problem

You're beautiful and I want the best for you

But I also hope you fail without me

It was really rather miserable trying to love you

I'll take care, I'll read again, I'll sing again, I will

I'll take care, I'll read again, I'll sing again, I will

We laid there in the darkness and you were asleep

And I wasn't checking my phone for a moment and I felt–