If You're Not Gonna Jump

When I reminisce over you, my eyes glaze Thought about all those nights that we stayed up late As I try to escape, I'm afraid, I relate To my Pops, demonstrate, when his hair got gray Try to think of your face, but the memories fade Used to chill at the spot, that was our secret place Body so smooth like a jade, felt so amazing Thought I was aloof til you caught me gazing Wait, that was you, guess my memory hazy Endless summer days, pray to God, "don't change it" Heart skipped a beat, so I found a new cadence Just two kids, but to me you were famous Just playing, just two nerds spending rainy days gaming Summer days outside painting Popping champagne, wondering where the day went When the sun shines bright, gotta make hay If you're not gonna jump, better make way A lotta brothers like to boast that they self made But without you, I'd be nothing but a state slave Years pass, and I think of long nights Lying by your side under starlight but something ain't right You told me that you didn't have the fight To go against the sickness that was growing inside You cried, I cried, we stare into fire Couldn't find the words, for what would transpire Looked to the preacher man, told me look higher Get on my knees and I scream 'oh why her' My eyes go teary, the mind grows weary Autumn days end and you still don't hear me Dark night of the soul, God it's so cold Text like reflex, forget that you're gone Message not delivered, feels like a blade Now it's been eight years to the day (since we locked gaze) I'll stay in the shade, dream of summer days That's why I make art cos that's what will save My life When the sun shines bright, gotta make hay If you're not gonna jump, better make way A lotta brothers like to boast that they self made But without you, I'd be nothing but a state slave When the sun shines bright, gotta make hay If you're not gonna jump, better make way A lotta brothers like to boast that they self made But without you, I'd be nothing but a state slave