The Sad Part

Multitasking, tryna bring a bag in

My bad

I can't shoot the shxt and discuss the latest fashions

Indecisive, got some vices

Tryna slay them dragons

Cut some people off

But too thorough to say what happened

Lost my phucking grams, now my fam split

Ain't talkin' to Amber

I'm like, "damn, bxtch! Wuzzamp, bxtch?"

You was like my closest cousin

Lost Auntie Sandra

She was the one that would hold us up when

We fell down

Now all we doing is holding grudges

Fuck it, I feel like Ahmad off of Soul Food

While sipping liquor

My liver feel like an old prune

Ain't been inspired lately

Can't out do my old tunes

Back when I was carefree

Got on tracks and bared me

Now I'm feelin' terribly

Probably need some therapy

Probably need Betty Ford

Too addicted, ain't ready for it

Phone stay on silent

Don't answer, they call me petty for it

Living on the edge, no breaks

I'm phucking headed towards it

Phucking like a sex addict, and though I'm best at it

I know it ain't the best habit

Just do it cause I'm lonely

Cheated on the only man that held me down

Now he don't want me

Yeah, I smile for the gram

But this the type of shit you don't see

Drinking and driving

Jesus took the wheel

Totaled my car

I'm still in awe that I wasn't killed

Just like my fans are still in awe that I don't have a deal

This game's so pxssy

And my albums are like Vagisil

But rapping skills don't mean too much in today's time

So I ghost wrote many of they lines

I play fine while I drown in this liquor

I could drain me a river

Supposed to be Nas or be Jigga

Instead, I be up like Miss Rippa

Early, while soaking this fifth up

Lighting this shit up

The plight of a talented artist

Target a spiteful-ass ****

Don't wanna end up working at Trader Joe's

Like Alvin off the Cosby's

But sadly, I realized that no one got me like I got me

Miss when shxt was just a hobby

Listenin' to Foxy

Lil' Kim and Lauryn

Back before I had them warrants

Back when rap wasn't about who rocked the newest garments

How the phuck I'm supposed to make a album when I'm still mourning

My grandmother and her precious child

On top of finding out my Daddy was a pedophile

I wrote "Dear Father" without knowing he was phucking foul

Fans tell me that's their favorite shxt

And I can't even play the shxt

Mama popping pills got me feelin' like I babysit

Same day I brought my first house

Found her OD'd in her house

So much shit I'm hurt bout, thought I was in love

But I'm glad that shxt ain't work out

That love shxt, still ain't sure 'bout

Claimed we would be married

Found out I was pregnant

And I phucking miscarried

Admit, was a bit happy

Love kids like I'm Trick Daddy

But shxt in this sick, nappy head of mine

Won't convince me that they'll be fine

'Cause I had no example

Prayers, I need ample

I'm sorry Bink, just spitting what I think

Don't mean to ramble

Need to shrink, my life in shambles

Shxt get so hard to handle

Staring at Miss Lillie's pictures sitting on this mantle

Same place I thought I sit my Grammy

Instead I got my pistol sitting on his bitch

Make me wanna grab my chrome and clip

Put it to my dome and dip

Then I think that's phony shxt

Just like my daddy did

I won't be like they phony bxtch

Miss me with they homie shxt

Lately I been lonely shxt

Can't think of much to cheer me up besides getting rich

Lately I had nightmares of ending up just like Nip

Let me take a sip, I must get a grip

Limo tint on whip, rarely in the VIP

Cause I don't wanna be the next rapper that they post rip

Following my hashtag

I must get this cash fast

My city like Baghdad

Can't focus on ASCAP

This for me is past rap

I must get the last laugh

Barrel full of bad crabs

Hold up wait, slash that

Barrel full of underprivileged negus on the cash grab

Been this way since back, back

Pistol in my knapsack

Where I'm from you rarely see 21 like Black Jack

Girls act like Katstacks

They don't know where that at

Grew up on the fast track

My best friend got track marks

Listen to Maria, I'm like, "when the fuck did that start?"

I ain't even get to the sad part

Ain't even get to the sad part