By Myself

Feel like I live inside a world where I do not belong

I put this mask over my face and act like nothing's wrong

Anyone I ever try to love becomes withdrawn

Soon as I realize that they're ugly, I start moving on (yeah)

I'm by myself again (yeah)

I'm by myself again (yeah)

Looking in the mirror at my only friend (yeah)

Yeah, I'm by myself again (by myself again)

My tears been beggin' for a shoulder

Been through hell, my heart is smoldered

Every flame just makes it colder, yeah (yeah)

And all the gold I had on, it just melted

That's why people do not value me

They just label me selfish, yeah (yeah)

You ever done so much wrong that you don't pray?

People know there's something going on, but they don't stay

Wake up in the morning, but it feels like an old day

Another broken record, but the record won't play

Stuck in my old ways, act like I'm okay

Innocence so dead, it's a cold case

All the built-up pain 'bout to avalanche (avalanche)

I can't afford another snowflake

I'm second-guessing what's inside of me

The better man I try to be

Got murder silently (ain't no reviving me)

I try to see the light, but it's so dark

Seek forgiveness, but it's so hard

These tats and band-aids, I'm so scarred

This world I'm in don't know my heart

Feel like I live inside a world where I do not belong

I put this mask over my face and act like nothing's wrong

Anyone I ever try to love becomes withdrawn

Soon as I realize that they're ugly, I start moving on (yeah)

I'm by myself again (yeah)

I'm by myself again (yeah)

Looking in the mirror at my only friend (yeah)

Yeah, I'm by myself again

All these thoughts creep up when it's bedtime

My mind goin' full speed, everything redlined

Need to make time for myself, but I can't 'cause the deadlines

Runnin' from these fires with my names on their headlines

I have no sanctuary, mental health comes secondary

They won't see my magnitude

'Til the day I'm dead and buried

Everybody wants beef when you focus on peace

Inbox full of people asking why I won't speak

Bringing back the old me means that I'm bothered

The old me can't be a husband or father, I know that hurts

I can still feel the pain in my vein when I listen to a throwback verse

You can label me a bitch, I don't give two shits

Going back to the old me is so much worse

These knife wounds came in typhoons

My back bruised, but my eyes zoomed

Don't phony shit, fake homie shit

Should've cut you off when I know the shit

But I'ma own the shit and learn from my faults

Got a ball with some snakes, and I know that's wrong

Had love for the weak, just know that's gone

From now on, I ain't putting no one on, 'cause I

Feel like I live inside a world where I do not belong

I put this mask over my face and act like nothing's wrong

Anyone I ever try to love becomes withdrawn

Soon as I realize that they're ugly, I start moving on (yeah)

I'm by myself again (yeah)

I'm by myself again (yeah)

Looking in the mirror at my only friend (yeah)

Yeah, I'm by myself again