So It Seems

They don't ask to say I'm okay, I just say so it seems Behind doors tearin' up, consistently sewing seams This thing got a chorus, G, this one here is one for me I've had thoughts I can't repeat, this is me at war with me This is why I can't retreat, lost my nan' last week Never had a chance to speak, people tryna give me grief So, I ain't had a chance to grieve, too much relies on me Inside I'm still learning, but outside's masterpiece Even if I part with you, you are still a part of me Instead of trying to start on me, why not make a start with me? I know the sayings well, I'm calm with karma, G Temptations don't faze me, I know how the dark can be 30-second stroll with me, have you in your thoughts for weeks I've had all the battles, but no one's ever fought for me I learn from the scars I got, nothing was taught to me How can you say I'm okay if you don't talk to me? Oh, so it seems that I hold it all with ease Doesn't mean it ain't heavy (ooh) But behind these eyes, it ain't What it seems Oh, so it seems that I hold it all with ease (hold it all with ease) Doesn't mean it ain't heavy (heavy) But behind these eyes, it ain't What it seems (yo) Sitting here thinking 'bout things no one thinks about Like, how am I really doing? You don't know the ins and outs Life is so different now, you ask me, "Different, how?" Never got to say goodbye, really wish I did it now Hooked on this rollercoaster, when will someone fish me out? Instead of tryin' to solve problems, we keep pushing things around I think I understand, ain't just 'cause I've been around It's 'cause I've been the one laughing, and I've also been the clown Happy, yeah, so it seems, everyone is loving me Lots to keep me company, money and the company But the saddest part of this is not the people judging me Or the label bumping me, I told you what fucks with me It's because no matter what, we focus on the bad things Even when it's outweighed by the good, that's what's bugging me You ain't heard enough of me, 'cause I don't show enough of me I wish I had more time, I wish there was another me Oh, so it seems (oh-oh-oh) I hold it all with ease But behind these eyes are my fears I hear you calling me And I'm coming back to you You said you'd never leave So, I'm coming back to you